Friday, July 31, 2009

Weight Loss

I'm sure you've all heard, (because I talk about it a lot) but just in case you haven't I've lost 43 pounds! I lost an initial 25 after having Rayna, and since, I've lost another 18 on my own. I guess I can give some of the praise to Rayna, for causing me to burn extra calories while breastfeeding, as well as being sensitive to dairy. But on top of cutting out dairy, I've also cut out a lot of extra things on my own and overall I feel great! I couldn't be more excited about it.

My goal is to lose another 40 pounds by the end of the year, which will put me well under 200 pounds. Somewhere I haven't been in over 10 years. But for now I'm setting small goals. Like, right now I'm working on losing another 5 pounds in 15 days. I know I can do it if I set my mind to it, and having the encouragement from family and friends makes it all the more better. Maybe soon I will furnish a before and after pic. Some people give me a lot of compliments while other don't seem to see a change. I know I do! Half of the clothes in my closet no long fit but I'm not complaining!

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

A Father's Love!





Then he quickly got down and joined in on the fun! What a GREAT dad! And it shows, they truly love him...

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

My Babies

I don't have much to blog about so instead I'll share some pictures I took today!






Rayce loves to share "floor time" with his sister. If she's on her back then he is, if she's on her tummy then he is! It's too cute! I love these kids...it's never a dull moment with them around. ;)

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

3 months!






Rayce loves his sister. He always says "that's my sista, she's purtty" and then proceeds to give her a kiss. It's just the sweetest. She's now 3 months and I can't believe how fast it has gone by. She's becoming more alert and aware now but she's still a diva, demanding all the attention all the time. We love her though and wouldn't trade her for another. ;)

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Isn't she lovely?

This is just a little video of Rayna I took the other day. I just love her to pieces!



Friday, July 10, 2009

Post Partum Depression

Yep you read it right, post partum depression. Sucks, sucks, sucks! I start my new medication tomorrow. The truth is I've been suffering in silence for a few months now and I finally made the bold choice to call my OB. It is something that I have been wrestling with and fighting for a few months now. In fact when I went in for my 6 weeks post partum check I knew I had it, I just didn't want to admit it. Who likes to admit that they need help? That the one thing that was wanted for so long left me feeling worthless and helpless. I somehow thought it would all go away, that as Rayna's crying got better, so would I. Well, that came and went and I didn't notice a difference in fact, I was only getting worse. I feel like I'm drowning and everyone is standing around watching only, no one is jumping in to save me. Growing increasingly agitated and completely vulnerable, I decided enough was enough. I'm sad. The last thing I wanted in this life was to end up on anti-depressants again. I know its for the better but right now I'm struggling with the fact that I need a pill to help balance out my life.

I've been trying to make sure I have some me time once a week which seems to be helping. Also I've been cleaning out closets, getting ready for a yard sale which seems to be keeping my mind off things. Life just gets overwheleming at times. I'm working on it everyday, working to try and find this so called "balance".

Monday, July 6, 2009

Better In Time

Life is slowly getting back to normal. The last few months have been total chaos but as Rayna is getting better the whole family is getting better as well. As most of you know Rayna has been an extremely difficult baby and it took a toll on the whole family. Hopefully that is all behind us now and I can get back to doing the things I once loved.

Rayna will be 3 months next week. She is now cooing and smiling at you, as well as sleeping through the night. On most nights she will sleep for 6-7 hours but she has slept for as much as 9! I can't tell you what a world of difference a little sleep makes. She still cries a lot and requires a lot of one on one attention but in time she is getting better. She is still on her reflux medication but her pedi hopes to have it cut out by 6 months. I am also on a dairy, nut, egg and coffee free diet. Which hasn't been easy but, I have seen such an improvement with eliminating all of this from my diet that if it's helping her, I'm willing to make the sacrifice. She loves to carry on a conversation with anyone! She loves to talk back if you talk to her. I love her, she is growing up way too quick.

Rayce is now 2.5 years old and growing like a weed. Bless his little heart he is probably the one who has had the hardest time through all of this. Rayna has been quite an adjustment for him but everyday he gets better. Ray and I are working on being more patient with him and learning to have a softer approach, as far as discipline and so far it seems to be working. We were trying a tougher kind of discipline with him but it seemed to be making him act out more and him tantrums were getting out of hand. Not that they still aren't (at times) but I have definitely seen an improvement over the last couple of weeks. He is also talking non-stop (who would've thought) and talking in sentences. He pretty much knows how to communicate what he wants now and that in it's self makes life so much easier. He loves cars (as always) playing on his new swing set outside, and playing ball. He's such a curious little guy, always getting into everything but nonetheless we have a great time with him.

Like I said last time, I'm going to try and update this thing more often (hopefully) so check back in. Miss everyone, that's all for now. ;)