My Babies

I don't have much to blog about so instead I'll share some pictures I took today!






Rayce loves to share "floor time" with his sister. If she's on her back then he is, if she's on her tummy then he is! It's too cute! I love these kids...it's never a dull moment with them around. ;)

3 months!

Rayce loves his sister. He always says "that's my sista, she's purtty" and then proceeds to give her a kiss. It's just the sweetest. She's now 3 months and I can't believe how fast it has gone by. She's becoming more alert and aware now but she's still a diva, demanding all the attention all the time. We love her though and wouldn't trade her for another. ;)

Isn't she lovely?

This is just a little video of Rayna I took the other day. I just love her to pieces!

Post Partum Depression

Yep you read it right, post partum depression. Sucks, sucks, sucks! I start my new medication tomorrow. The truth is I've been suffering in silence for a few months now and I finally made the bold choice to call my OB. It is something that I have been wrestling with and fighting for a few months now. In fact when I went in for my 6 weeks post partum check I knew I had it, I just didn't want to admit it. Who likes to admit that they need help? That the one thing that was wanted for so long left me feeling worthless and helpless. I somehow thought it would all go away, that as Rayna's crying got better, so would I. Well, that came and went and I didn't notice a difference in fact, I was only getting worse. I feel like I'm drowning and everyone is standing around watching only, no one is jumping in to save me. Growing increasingly agitated and completely vulnerable, I decided enough was enough. I'm sad. The last thing I wanted in this life was to end up on anti-depressants again. I know its for the better but right now I'm struggling with the fact that I need a pill to help balance out my life.

I've been trying to make sure I have some me time once a week which seems to be helping. Also I've been cleaning out closets, getting ready for a yard sale which seems to be keeping my mind off things. Life just gets overwheleming at times. I'm working on it everyday, working to try and find this so called "balance".

Better In Time

Life is slowly getting back to normal. The last few months have been total chaos but as Rayna is getting better the whole family is getting better as well. As most of you know Rayna has been an extremely difficult baby and it took a toll on the whole family. Hopefully that is all behind us now and I can get back to doing the things I once loved.

Rayna will be 3 months next week. She is now cooing and smiling at you, as well as sleeping through the night. On most nights she will sleep for 6-7 hours but she has slept for as much as 9! I can't tell you what a world of difference a little sleep makes. She still cries a lot and requires a lot of one on one attention but in time she is getting better. She is still on her reflux medication but her pedi hopes to have it cut out by 6 months. I am also on a dairy, nut, egg and coffee free diet. Which hasn't been easy but, I have seen such an improvement with eliminating all of this from my diet that if it's helping her, I'm willing to make the sacrifice. She loves to carry on a conversation with anyone! She loves to talk back if you talk to her. I love her, she is growing up way too quick.

Rayce is now 2.5 years old and growing like a weed. Bless his little heart he is probably the one who has had the hardest time through all of this. Rayna has been quite an adjustment for him but everyday he gets better. Ray and I are working on being more patient with him and learning to have a softer approach, as far as discipline and so far it seems to be working. We were trying a tougher kind of discipline with him but it seemed to be making him act out more and him tantrums were getting out of hand. Not that they still aren't (at times) but I have definitely seen an improvement over the last couple of weeks. He is also talking non-stop (who would've thought) and talking in sentences. He pretty much knows how to communicate what he wants now and that in it's self makes life so much easier. He loves cars (as always) playing on his new swing set outside, and playing ball. He's such a curious little guy, always getting into everything but nonetheless we have a great time with him.

Like I said last time, I'm going to try and update this thing more often (hopefully) so check back in. Miss everyone, that's all for now. ;)

She's 1 month!

Whoa, how time flies when you're having fun! My baby girl is 1 month old and this blog is seriously neglected. It has been neglected for a reason though. You see this girl is one tough cookie. Her yellow brick road hasn't been so yellow thus far. We are currently battling reflux and a severe case of colic. Both have different diagnosis, handled in different ways. It hasn't been easy and is probably one of the hardest things I've had to deal with in a long time. I'm looking forward to the day that she out grows all of this, but at the same time, I'm sad because I am missing out on her precious baby days. I'm so occupied dealing with the pesky stuff. Sleep is few and far between and at times I feel like I'm going a little nutty but I hope to keep up with this blog a little bit more so that I have something to look back on. That's all she wrote for now...